Where has the time gone?

Wow it's really just flying by, I havent even decided what I want to be for halloween yet!? I was going to be the pink power ranger but I couldn't find the costume in a size that would fit me. Which made me very sad, seeing as how i'm on this whole pink rampage it would have worked nicely but no... recently i've been stuffing my face full of candy corn. It happens around this time every year, I get the taste for it and I will eat it until i'm sick and then I wont want it again till next year. It's some sort of weird ritual thing...I dont understand it either.

I spent some time outside Last week some time when it was actually nice outside which was weird because I was almost used to being cold (almost but not quite) so me and my friends took to the woods to see the water before it got to snowy to go to our spot. We have this little spot by the scarborough bluffs that looks out onto the water from a strange part of the city. It's actually a really cool spot to take pictures of the water and stuff. Hopefully I can go back before it starts to snow. Maybe around halloween...who knows

I'm a doctor because I say so.

I've been feeling a little off lately, I think it's just the weather...but my mother (who magically has her PHD in what's wrong with odett) says it's probably seasonal depression. So with my new illness in had I have booked myself for a doctors appointment, ya know to get a second opinion...or at least a one that is more valid then a hand on my forehead and questions about I had for dinner the night before. It very well could be just S.D but I think i'd rather hear it from someone who spent almost 8 years in university to tell me that rather then the insane ramblings of my mother. She doesnt always get it wrong...but she rarely gets it right. it's more of a one in ten kind of hit or miss thing for her.

I occassionally find myself doing it too lately. People, mostly friends as random people tend not to tell me their problems, tell me they are not feeling well and then I seem to ask for a list of symptoms. I feeling it's okay as i'm generally someone who gets sick alot. Not that anyone would come up with the weird things I seem to pick up along the way. However, there was many times that I was actually right about what they had. Not that I would ever become a doctor, no matter how much my mother would love that, I cant stand the sight of blood and I really dont like sick people. Especally because sick people make me sick and that just wont do.

Thanksgiving was good, I had way to much family in my house but what else is new about any holiday and my family. I seem to acquire more family everytime there's another holiday. This time I ended up with 3 new cousins in which I then had to turn around and entertain. I'm not sure why I'm always looked upon to find something for these people to do. I'm a pretty boring person on my own, I dont think I get any better in group settings. I dont even really like alot of my cousins. some of them are okay, the cool ones and the cute ones, but there is always that middle ground where they are either really annoy or just rude....like I owe them something...pffft. They should be so lucky. I think family is an odd sort of thing, seeing as how you really have no say in who you are related to...I saw a poster once that said "Friends are gods way of saying sorry for family" and I dont think I could ever agree more then on major holidays.

So many things to do...so little time

It was my parents anniversary this weekend so all my family from new york and stuff came over. It was quite the occassion, My mom and dad looked so cute. My mom had this huge smile plasterd on her face the entire time, it was so sweet and I looked pretty nice, I wore blue and it was quite a nice dress, I had worn it before for my uncles wedding.

I really like that dress... But I never really have many places to wear it. i need to find more formal occassions...I could always just wear it to the local no frills but i think I might get a few strange looks.

Over and done now back to normal

Ray's wedding was good My hair looked good and I was quite happy with the way everything went. I had to wear orange, it didnt look bad but I Think I will avoid wearing orange for a little while...if not forever.

The girl in the black and white dress had a nice one, i really liked it. but somehow I dont think people would allow their wedding party to wear black...I would but I guess I'm a different kind of person then most. This is what the wedding looked like, I was freezing my fucking ass off...

These arent my photo's...most of them are my sisters....my camera sucks! I need a knew one Badly DX...

Meh O___o

Always a bridesmaid never a bride

This weekend my best friend Raluca got married. I'm starting to feel older then I did before, It's strange how I didnt really start to notice that i was old...well older... then any other time in my life until my friends start to get married or have kids. What is it about those life milestones that makes people really start to notice their age. It was nice at one time to think that I wasnt that old; still hanging out and occassionally wasting my life away with weed, rock music and indie movies with subtitles. But I have bills to pay and deadlines to meet, moments and behaviours to account for and some how i still didnt feel like i was old. Until sunday when I stood in the cold breeze of october (it was an outdoor wedding..yeah i know outdoor weddings in october...she's lucky i love her) and watch as my best friend marry the man she loves under the trees in some forest in woodbridge. I dont like feeling old, i dont like feeling finite. not to say that at any time I felt infinite but I did, at one point, feel young enough to live for a long time. However, now I feel like i have such a short time...much shorter then I thought I had.

In January, i'm going to be 25....not that 25 is old by any means...but it is certinly not young. It's like that half way mark in life where you either need to decided that you are going to do something important or live in your parents basement for the next 20 years. I dont quite belive that I will end up being like that. I dont really like living with my parents right now, another 20 years might just kill me. But It's easy to see how time just kinds of gets away from you. How one day you are riding bikes, next day you are riding in the front seat and next day you are riding in the back...If you dont quite get what I mean by that last one i'm talking about a funeral. Now i'm not trying to be bleek or mellowdramatic, but I really want to get across the fact that time is so important...I want to go back to that point in life to the point when time didn't matter, when days seemed endless and bedtimes existed. Those were good times...good times.

Brrr...it's cold in here.

I hate winter.
I hate cold.
I hate being cold in winter.
I think I hate being cold more then I hate anything else. I would rather loose some toes then spend the rest of my life being cold. Which is sad, because I really like my toes...they are cute and stubby....but I digress. When I woke up this morning I already knew it was cold, my bedroom has a way of copying what the weather is like outside...except for maybe snow. I would cry if it snowed in my room. Anyway, I have come to the conclusion that I need to start getting ready for winter, before I wake up one morning with no boots and there's a foot of snow outside. You may laugh at this but it happened to me last year. So I've rummaged out the wool sweaters, brought out the tights and have strongly considered buying snow pants...I refuse to be cold this winter. I know it will still happen...but I'd like to think I've gotten the edge on winter...who knows...we'll see how well the boot buying goes...


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Shut up and let me cook

Shut up and let me go

The Ting Tings

It was nice to have a few days off this week. Thankfully York has most of the jewish holidays off, I got to rest quite a bit. I feel a little uncreative, I wanted to make something but i can't figure out what to do...Right now i'm thinking about my raviollie, It was goat cheese raviollie.... i'm not a big fan of many greens other then green beans....

If you want to make some really good raviollie try yam raviollie with chinese 5 spice. I havent made them yet but I plan too. cooking isnt my strong point but if I want to have yam raviollie I will have to do it myself....

Ingredients:

1 cup (2 sticks) unsalted butter, room temperature

9 tablespoons sorghum syrup* or 1/2 cup clover honey plus 1 tablespoon robust-flavored (dark) molasses

1 teaspoon ground cinnamon

1/2 teaspoon ground clovesLarge pinch of cayenne pepper
8 10- to 11-ounce yams (red-skinned sweet potatoes)

Preparation

Beat butter, sorghum syrup, cinnamon, cloves and cayenne in medium bowl to blend; season with salt. (Can be prepared 5 days ahead. Cover and refrigerate. Bring mixture to room temperature before using.)
Preheat oven to 350°F. Rinse potatoes; pat dry. Pierce each several times with fork; place on baking sheet. Bake potatoes until tender, about 1 hour.
Cut top of each potato lengthwise; press in ends to open top. Spoon some sorghum butter into opening of each potato and serve.

I'm sure they'll taste yummy!